To adhere completely to the divine will, means annulling one’s own personality, but certainly not your Responsibility.
To be a docile instrument is good and necessary, but to be always sure of being a divine instrument is not easy.
To have the Intention of adhering to the divine is only sufficient when you postulate this Intention; then when you make it active and concrete, you come up against Reality that is not always positive, because it is often conditioned by negative forces.
God allows this precisely to strengthen, and bring forth in you a sense of Responsibility that you must never abandon.
To be Responsible means to never falsify the signs that God sends you, never mystify events interpreting them for your own convenience, but to always pay attention in following the goal that God has indicated through your Instinct.
To be used by God you must be an appropriate instrument; if you feel unhappy, anxious or fear…which is the absence of Harmony with yourself, then you are not in Harmony with the cosmos, and therefore not suitable to function as a divine instrument.
Then you could become an instrument of disturbing forces, whose aim is to hamper the divine plan and to deviate events.
If you do not look for outside help but focus on yourself, you will not lend yourself to the disturbing forces, because looking for help and collaboration is your will, which must not exist when you are completely aware of being an instrument of the divine.

It is Him and only Him that offers help, by being chosen by Him.
It is Him and only Him that guides our path and events.
It is Him and only Him that decides the ways, the times, the beings that must be part of His plan.
You are only asked to accept the events, develop them and certainly not to force them.